Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Miscellaneous Manure Pt. 6

I ended up spending a lot of time on my adoption on Monday and of course getting no where. I left messages for the person who I know was adopted through the same lawyer as me, but he hasn't called back yet. Maybe I don't have the right number or he doesn't remember me, it has been over 20 years since we've seen each other. Or maybe he thinks I'm crazy. I was careful not to use the "A" word (adoption) in messages. Even though I know this person knows they were adopted. Touchy subject nonetheless. I also sent my info to a private investigator for a free quote, but have not heard from them either. And I registered at a few more adoption registry sites.

Now I have another reason I put this search off. It take soooo much freaken time!

School was cancelled today because of the snow. We all stayed inside, nice and warm and did lazy but fun stuff together. I made a delicious brunch, sorry if pic makes you hungry. Those are chocolate chip pancakes in case you were drooling, I mean wondering. We also played Wii, made home-made Valentine cards and peanut butter chocolate chip cookies.

Speaking of cookies, as of last Wednesday, I have lost 14.8 pounds on Weight Watchers. I think I have lost more but didn't go weigh in today because of the weather.

Hus has a black eye. He hit himself in the head with a metal pipe at work. Okay, it's not that funny! He was stripping wire and somehow pulled and the pipe out and it came out faster than expected and hit him just above and to the right of his right eye. Poor Hus. Then the very same day, he lost his wallet. He was at Stewarts buying milk, left and went to get gas and realized his wallet was missing! He went back to Stewarts and of course it was gone. When he got home, I called and cancelled his Visa and JCPenney card. Luckily there was only about $20 cash in it. About 2 hours later that night, the police called and said someone had dropped off his wallet claiming they had found it in the parking lot of Stewarts, minus the cash. Poor Hus.

Thanks for all of your kind comments and emails regarding my last post. I'll update if and when I get more news.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Do I Look Familiar? Pt. 4

I had a few emotionally bad days last week. For those of you who don't know the story of my adoption, click on the label at the bottom of this post and you'll find my previous adoption posts.I finally figured out why it is taking me so long to get anywhere with this search for my biological family. Every time I take a step, for example call someone or write someone, I hit a brick wall. When this happens to me, instead of motivating me to take another step, it just makes me upset and I give up for a while.
About 6 months ago I contacted a lawyer to find out if I had any chance of winning a petition to the court to open my files. First I couldn't find a lawyer that had ever petitioned the court to open sealed birth records, then it took a while to find one that might help me with my case. We have emailed back and forth a few times. He didn't think I had a case without a medical reason and thought perhaps a private investigator would be more helpful. I know someone who had done this and was successful at finding her birth parents. It was probably over 10 years ago and cost $5000. Her adoption was straight forward-through an agency- type adoption. Mine is a more complicated-black or gray market-type adoption. So I figure it would cost even more.
The latest thing I have done, is to see a skin doctor because I think I might have a hereditary skin condition. The doc said he wasn't' convinced that I did have this, but is willing to write a letter to the court stating that it would be beneficial to know my family history and whether any close relatives have skin cancer.I emailed this news to the lawyer. He emailed me back that he is willing to try petitioning the court, however, isn't sure it will work and he anticipates appeals. He also wants a $5000 retainer. If he told me that this would definitely work, I would have already mailed him the check. Instead, I read that it might not, and then I started to cry. I absolutely hate crying! It's not that I don't find crying therapeutic at times, I do. It's just that lately once the waterworks start, they don't want to stop, my eyes burn and swell and for days after I still feel like my brain is foggy and my eyes are puffy.This is why I give up so easily. I need time to recover and become strong enough to try again. This is also why at times I just feel like giving up. Is it worth the emotional turmoil? Sometimes, well most times, I am angry too because it is just so unfair that I have to go through all this, just to know my history. NOT FAIR!!!!( Sorry, feeling a little sorry for myself?)
Today my goals are to make more phone calls and try not to cry at the first disappointment.I am going to call the following:
1.Another adoptee who was adopted from the same lawyer, not sure if I have the correct phone number.
2.An adoption support group in the area where I was possibly born.
3.The Newspaper from where I was possibly born to see about putting an ad in it. I'm sure I'll get a lot of crackpots answering so I will get a p.o. box and new email.
4.The local police department from where I was possibly born to find out about how long they keep records of missing or abandoned babies. 40 years?
5.Local library to find out where I can view archives of newspapers.
What I fear will happen is, I will call number one, get nowhere, start crying and give up for the day, week or month. This time however, I have taking a half of a Xanax and will take more as needed!
Wish me luck. I'll be by to visit everyone this evening.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Goodbye Bush!

Don't let the country hit you in the ass on the way out.

I don't normally write about political things, but I just had to today. I am very happy and hopeful now that the country is heading in the right direction.

This morning T got into bed with me and said "I am glad Bawk Obama(still working on his sweech)is president. You said we would have to move to a different country if McCain won."

Yes, I did say that. I was really scared.

T also asked, while we were watching a show on past presidents last night, " Who was the first president?"

"George Washington"we all replied.

He then asked "Well, when was George CLOONEY president?"

Monday, January 19, 2009


I was very busy sitting on my ass playing Wii and Nintendo DS with the kids on Saturday. Sunday the family dragged me outside to play. Then they forced me to make chocolate chip cookies and search for Disney Vacations Online. I didn't have any time to write something meaningful, but here is a Meme I got from Shelly. It's a little long.
I was supposed to highlight everything on this list that I have done. Instead I made them red and added a little extra in parenthesis.

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars(at the ocean)
3. Played in a band(Dated a lot of band members)
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity(and less sometimes)
7. Been to Disneyland/world(both)
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child(I'm adopted)
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run(on my Wii)
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors(don't know where that might be)
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language(recently learned how to use the interpreter phone at work)
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David(the mini replica in my living room)
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant(I have dined and dashed before)
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance(gone on patient transports in an ambulance)
47. Had your portrait painted/drawn
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie(extra in a horror movie, can't remember the name)
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma(would love to as soon as they have it at a time I can get there)
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy(teddy bear and Lego's)
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job(quit even more)
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book(short story in a book)
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible(Old Testament)
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox(when I was 38 years old)
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous(the band Poison, Bob Geldof, Brooke Shields, lead singer of The Cult,Adam Ant, Bob Dillon)
92. Joined a book club(Shelfari online)
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby(two)
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a lawsuit
98. Owned a cell phone(Trac phone)
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Read an entire book in one day

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I Don't Hate Verizon Anymore

Guess where I am? Come on guess. Okay, I'll tell you. I am sitting on my couch in my living room. Yes, Mama has Wireless!!!

Well, I have complained many times before about the lack of anything except dial-up Internet from my house. I have tried Satellite... too many trees, cable...not where I live, DSL... not anytime in the future. A couple months ago I visited a Verizon store to find out about their wireless. The sales person checked out my address on their computer and informed me that there was no Verizon signal at my house. She said it was strange, like I lived in a "no Verizon bubble". She told me to try someones Verizon cell phone, and if that worked, then wireless should work. So when my dad came with his fancy phone to visit, I had him try and connect to the Internet in every room and it worked. So I took my chances and went back to the Verizon store and purchased the plan for a 30 trial.

I still can't believe how well it works! Instead of taking 50 minutes to download a song, it takes from 0-6 minutes. Unbelievable. It's not even that much more money than dial-up and I can take it anywhere! Woo hoo!

I can't wait to tell Fairpoint Communications where they can stick there dial-up.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Don't Say 'Vagina' at the Dinner Table

Happy Delurking Day everyone! I received an email from Shelly informing me that today is Delurking day. Even though the day is almost over, I hope everyone who stops by will leave a comment. Maybe I'll get some inappropriate comments because of the title. I hope so.

Some ridiculous things I have done this past week...

1) Burnt my forehead with my hair straightening iron. Burned it significantly, so people ask me what the hell did I do to my forehead.

2) Burnt my forehead a second time. I look retarded.

3) Noticed that there are heat settings on the iron and turned the heat down, finally.

4) Said "Vagina" at the dinner table. Luckily at home. Explanation follows.

Why I said Vagina.

T is in need of speech therapy. He has trouble with a few letters but mostly the teacher and I are concerned because sometimes he has a trouble getting whole sentences out. It's almost like a stutter but he repeats the beginning of a sentence over and over.

Anyways, when I told him he needed speech therapy, he asked "What's sweech farapy?" Heh heh.

The other night at dinner T exclaimed "This vagina is dewicious!"

I nearly spit out my wine.

"Did you just say vagina?" I asked.

To which E, turning bright red in the face, yelled "MOTHER! He said LASAGNA!"

So I turned to T and said "Thank you. It's meat loaf."

Tuesday, January 06, 2009


Hus still doesn't want photos of the kids posted on my blog and I still respect that. He had no problem with the following images however. These were taken last summer when the kids were "bored". I said be "creative and find something to do" (In other words leave me alone). I didn't mean for them to tape tissue paper on their faces.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Mama Wars The Clone Years

Happy New Year All! I have been fighting for time on the computer but it has been a losing battle. Every 2 minutes someone asks me for help with one of their new toys or games. I am having fun with the playing, but seriously need to get back to blogging.

Here are a few of our favorite Christmas/Hanukkah presents...
The only thing Hus asked for.
Mama's new canisters. Pretty.

E's 4GB MP3 player. Now playing Akon. Something about "making love".

Finally, the funniest gift, T's Clone helmet and light saber.(Just ignore the door behind him, it's temporary)

We also were given a Wii from Grandpa, which is, for the moment, keeping everyone busy so I can write. I am off to visit you, it might take me all day and night, but I will get there.